hey... will said that i wasnt gonna keep up with this.. so im gonna prove him wrong... my last 2 days have sucked. Me and my parents had it out all day yesterday and last night about god knows what. Mostly about spring break. Me, Miles, Brandee, Jordan, Jessica, Rebecca, Anna, Morgan, and .... i cant remember who else... is going... and yeh... Mrs Landa and Mrs Beverly and maybe Mrs Becki will be our chaperones.....anyways...  basically the basketball team is going... and well uh.. sometimes we fight so i dont know how its gonna be... i think we fight cus we spend SOOOO much time together.. i mean its all day together at school then like 2 hours after school and then anytime we do anything on the weekend we're with each other... its so cool and weird at the same time... haha.. u know.... we're watching gone with the wind in creative writing... haha its cool.. i like the movie personally... rhett acts like he knows the words and he claims he was named after rhett butler... haha hes uh.. out there.. AH.. i miss chris... hes in irmo wrestling i think... he was knocked out last night.. like seriously.. he got dropped on his head! ... i was sad... but erm.. my song of the day is bad day by fuel... word mother fucker...

" im addicted to you.. dont you know that you're toxic?"

well well well i havent written lately.. nothing new really... u knowi hate fuckin bastards named brogdon butler... you see he was dating my best friend.. Parker... and then decided to screw her over.. hes full of shit and i hope he never gets any the rest of his life.. oh wait.. he still has Rich... but anyways i have a few new friends since the school year started... Will floyd.. yeh hes in 10th grade and well uh parker and brandee and miles and morgan .. those are like my close friends and so are my car buddies. Rebecca and Jessica. but yeah.. mmmm  im still dating chris.. we've celebrated our 1 year anniversay! haha a couple of months ago...  i swear readin back over some of these.. ive really grown up a lot.. i realized i was EXTREMELY clingy of chris and that i was worried for no reason sometimes. Ive learned that no matter what chris still loves me! no matter how corny i am ... kinda like what im writing.. haha but anywhoo... i miss so many people from over the summer i was close with... like catie martin, katherine moore, sarah lawrence, STEPHANIE LARKINS.. i just want yall to know.. i love yall! always.. im here for you ... anyways im gonna go leave me some comments so i know what towrite about

my heart hurts... really bad...ive realized how fake ive been over the past few months... ive been so oblivious to so much shit.. its so fuckin gay.. i hate the way i am and i hate how i feel... and all i want to do is talk to chris cus hes like my best friend... he doesnt realize how much he means to me...